Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Monday, April 21, 2008

3 more weeks...364 days to go..

So I turned 23 yesterday. Another year older, another year wiser, and another year closer to retirement. Lately, I've been doing some serious thinking as my time at Fresno State starts to dwindle away slowly but surely. I'm not all too sure where my life is headed. That freaks me out, but excites me at the same time because I've always tried to be three steps ahead of the game. People tell me that I'm going to do great things. Some days, I can see it perfectly. On other days, I can't.

It's been a little hard living life day by day not knowing what's going to happen. But that's what gives all of us the zest in our life to live it to the fullest.

Like I said, yesterday was my birthday. I had an awesome birthday this year. My mom was in the country (unlike last year), I got an awesome birthday present from my brother (KanYe West tickets to the show in Sacramento), and celebrated with great friends.

At the KanYe West Concert, he gave out his book that he first published called "Thank You and You're Welcome." The book is pretty concise, to the point. It gives out basic tips that everyone thinks, but can't say. The book I thought was really neat. One thing that really struck me in the book was he talks about friendships/relationships with people. He makes it a point to say that every situation you're in, you can control. It's just up to you as to how you go about it. I know people out there who always complain about how things aren't going right for them, and how much they hate this town, and so on and so forth. I really feel blessed that I've got great optimism in my life knowing that I can control my own destiny, not others. But even more so, that I've got that motivation and fire to make a difference in not only my life, but other's as well.

At my birthday dinner, I felt very blessed that I've got friends who push me to be better than I was the day before. Despite the fact that we're all so far away from each other because some have graduated or some have careers, I love that when we all hang out, we never miss a beat. I feel that in life, it is important to surround yourself around greatness. Being good in my life isn't good enough. Being great is what I strive to be. Greatness brings out greatness in others. It's that desire to not only make yourself happy with your success, but others can enjoy it with you also knowing they'll say "See, I knew he'd do it."

Friendships are important in my life, as you may know already. I find it hard to believe that when you let someone into that door that is your heart, mind, and soul, they'll quickly walk right out without saying goodbye. I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't upset this happened, but it did. The lesson I learned from this all was maybe I shouldn't give so much of myself anymore. Maybe I should let people earn their way in. I guess the moral of the story is, when someone gives you a lot of themselves to you, and vice versa, don't be so quick to write this person off and walk away. To me, walking away has never been an excuse. Rather, they walk away because it's what they've done their entire lives. When shit gets tough, they can't handle it, so they fold their tents, and move on. I don't want people like that in my life.

Anyhow, that's enough for today. Til then, enjoy and remember..bow to the presence of greatness.